Friday, 31 October 2014

Monthly Snapshots | October

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A snapshot of my comings and goings.

The month of October is always a little bit exciting. Everyone seems to be celebrating their birthdays, the weather gets exponentially warmer and mangoes start to come in season. Babies are born and people fall in love and it's just truly a wonderful time. Can I get a hip hip hooray?!

I've learnt a lot this month, about myself and the world. I've learnt that I'm not as extroverted as I used to be, no longer do I yearn to go out partying with a big group of friends, no...I'd rather just sit at home with a glass of cider watching the series Fargo. But can you really blame me? It's seriously so good!

I've also learnt a lot about my friends (see previous post) and I'm coming to terms with the idea that I don't really have that many at the end of the day. In saying though, I'm not really fussed. I used to think success or self-worth came from the abundance of people your surround yourself with and so in my later teen years I made sure I put myself out there and had people I could call on whenever I needed to. My house was always packed to the brim when I had a party and my MSN list always had at least twenty people online (even at 1am). Now my life tells a very different story.

I've also learnt that my body, though small, is rather unhealthy. I have weak muscles and weak bones (according to my physio) and if I don't strengthen them up I may see myself struggling in my older years. He also told me my ass is rather weak. I'm still trying to figure out how I should react to that.

November is going to be a month (I hope) in which I push myself to improve. I want to strengthen my productivity, in work and in my blog. I want to strengthen my relationships with the people I love, and even those I don't. I want to strengthen my health and my body, including my ass (any tips?). And I want to strengthen my mental state in a way that I can feel satisfied even if I don't achieve any of these things.

My girlfriend sent me this article yesterday and so much of it rings true to me. I waste a lot of my time worrying about what I will one day worry about and less time actually living. I spend too much time on technology and instead of trying to justify every single one of my idiotic choices, I choose to listen to Taylor Swift on the loudest volume my phone can go.

I can't yet say that being in your twenties is hard, I mean how can I judge when I haven't even lived through most of mine? But what I can say is so far it's pretty confusing, it's full of expectations and disappointments, but it's also pretty exciting. I don't want to waste my twenties worrying or thinking too much about every single bobby pin I put in my hair and what that may mean in the bigger picture of my life. No, I want to wake up, drink my iced tea and work out on my ass with peace of mind and freedom of heart.

Here's to next month and the potential movement it may bring! xx

p.s. Happy Halloween to all my American friends out there!

Tuesday, 28 October 2014

Springtime Friendship

^^ look ma! I have no eyes.
Sunday was one of those days. You know those magical days where the sun is shining, sleep-ins are allowed and the wind blows past your hair, sprinkling goodness over you in the process? Yeh, it was one of those days.

We brunched, we explored, we laughed, we made friends with animals and we drank rose lemonade. The wind cooled us down, as the more-summer-than-spring sun warmed us up again. We celebrated our dear friends birthday, we tried to figure out what the 'biodynamic' meant in 'biodynamic eggs', and we talked about the prospect of me turning vegetarian (but more on that in a later post).

It's nice to have friends. And while I know that is an obvious statement, I don't think it's really something I understood until now. All my life I have been surrounded by people who were there just out of convenience I suppose. We went to school together, or uni or church and while we were close, sisters even, once you take away the standing structure of the organisation we shared, we found out we didn't actually have all that much in common except for the course we were studying or the God we were worshipping.

It's healthy to be surrounded by people who get who you are, what you do and what you stand for. You can come from all different walks of life and still understand each other and still be able to make the other person feel whole.

Friendship is a beautiful thing and I think I have to stop taking it for granted.

How do you define 'Friendship'? I'm only now just figuring it out.

Friday, 24 October 2014

Finding the good

It's been a wonderful week and not in the usual way.

I haven't advanced in my career.

I have been full of self doubt.

My anxiety came back for a little bit.

My body slowed.

My patience was tested.

I've been bored out my brain, tested beyond compare, and torn in different directions.

And on top of all that I lost my keys.

In all that though, in all the crap and all the ache, I found good.

And that is all you need to know.