^^ mmm look that lovely Sydney water... :-|
It's been a while since I blogged. A week. To some people this might seem like forever, for others its normal or perhaps even too soon. Regardless of what is right or wrong in terms of a blog schedule, I feel sad that I couldn't blog all week.
The reasons were various. Somedays I was just too busy and then sometimes when I did find time, I wasn't motivated or I didn't have anything to blog about. Life last week was somewhat uneventful and I didn't really want to bore you with those details.
On Saturday though, I forced myself to go outside and take a breath. I left the editing at home, and drove to the water with Stephen. We had both woken up on the wrong side of the bed that morning. Our tired souls made us both a little snappy and we ended up in a bit of a 'blah' situation. So we drove to the pier and we just sat there. We didn't talk, we didn't hold hands. There seemed to be miles between us.
But we were okay with that. We were spending our time silently praying and healing our hearts, putting our pain and our stresses onto the Lord and letting Him wash us clean from negative thoughts. We both sat there, by the pier, watching the boats come in and out, and in an odd way we watched our negative energy sail away from our bodies too. The sun then washed over us and we felt warm again.
Sometimes it's okay to be angry or sad or 'blah' for no reason whatsoever. It's normal. It's human. What we need to do though is embrace the mood we are in and let it not take control. We have to acknowledge it and work with it, changing its form and turning it into something good. Stephen and I don't like to dwell on each other's negative energy. It's not healthy. Rather we work on trying to fix it and transform it into good. Sometimes that means just sitting with each other in silence while we let the thoughts escape, sometimes that means talking about it until 2am in the morning and sometimes it means we just need to or eat a tub of Ben & Jerry's ice-cream ;)
What do you do to help cure the negative rut?