(a completely random and irrelevant image of eggs...just because)
If someone gave me a dollar for every time I changed my blog layout I would be a millionaire right now. Honest.
I'm a restless soul.
And sometimes I fear it is for the worst.
You see I am always changing my mind on things. I get bored quickly. I am always moving and if I'm sitting still I tend to itch and twitch, always restless.
I never seem completely satisfied.
I think there's a big problem in this though.
You see if I am never completely satisfied then I am always going to be wanting more from the life I am living. I am always striving for more, and while there is benefit in this, I can't help but wonder if this goal is one I can achieve?
Sadly, I don't think so because being unable to be satisfied means I will never actually reach an end stage to a particular goal. I will never be satisfied with where I end up.
But I'm not alone. I think this notion is very common among people my age. We have this idea that as soon as we finish school everything will be better, but then we realise this exactly true so we set ourselves another goal. We think, well then maybe as soon as we finish university everything will be better. But again, we finish our studies and we realise the burden of responsibility is upon us and we start to notice this trend, that as time goes on life gets harder. But we continue with our dreaming and hope that once we find a boyfriend, or we get married, or we have kids, things will get better.
"Things will get better when...."
Truth is it doesn't get better when you have that kind of mindset.
The truth is, life doesn't just 'get better' when you have more money, or a husband, or a 'thigh gap' or your own home. And while these things may certainly help in some situations, it's our mindset that, I believe, is the answer to our satisfaction.
I read this quote today from an article on this same idea that said:
"If you can’t be happy where you are, with what you have, you never will"
And it is so true. Why should the pursuit of happiness be a pursuit at all? Why can't we just be happy now? Why do we have to keep striving towards this unattainable goal? Telling people they will one day be happy if they have x, y and z is giving people a false hope. We should telling people they can be happy today because they already have h, i and j or even p, q and r. We should be able to be happy with what we have.
And I say 'should' because this idea ain't easy. Just this week I had a big cry to Stephen because I felt unhappy with where my life was going, where we were going and that I didn't know where I was supposed to be. He told me to look back on my year and count my blessings and see how much I have achieved and how much I have right in this moment.
I felt like a bit of a fool after that.
I guess I'm saying, it's not wrong to strive for more, in fact I think it's healthy but if you're striving for more because you are hoping things will get just 'get better' when you reach your destination, then maybe you need to reevaluate.
When was the last time you felt truly satisfied?
** Edit: I just noticed my scrolling sidebar goes all out of wack on mobile devices. I will try and fix this as soon as I can. Anyone got any idea why this is happening? Help a sister out! **