They are such tricky things
They occur in your mind every minute of every day and they can alter the course of everything; your day, your life, your relationships, your health.
They are what determine what you write on your blog. They are what control whether you stop and say hi to the old friend from school you just walked past, or whether you upsize your meal at McDonalds. Do you stay in or go out? Should you kiss him tonight or wait for the 3rd date? Is the red skirt better with the black top? What nail colour? What pyjama pants? Which muesli? Skim or Full cream?
They surround us. Engulf us. And as a result, control us.
They are the reason why my hair is now 5 inches shorter than last week.
They are what determines if I quit my job or not (something I really am considering doing).
and yet, even though we breathe decisions out of bodies every day, I still can't figure them all out.
We had breakfast by the beach over the weekend and discussed the many different ways the next two years could pan out for us. Some things were exciting. Some were daunting. But through all the um'ing and ah'ing, not one decision seemed clear.
I'm a planner and so generally I like making decisions. I'm good at it. But 2015/16 is looking a little confusing to me and I've found myself a little stuck.
So we walked down to the rock pools and stood by the ocean, waiting for the waves to sweep up towards us. It was an easy decision to make, one I could handle with ease. The water was cool and refreshing and my body started to calm. I felt the breeze brush against me and I realised that right then, in that moment, I didn't have to have it all figured it out. I could just continue to make the decision to stand there and take it all in.
So that's what I did.
What tough (or easy) decisions are you being faced with this week?