Wednesday, 25 February 2015

Comfort

The rain is pounding against my window and all I can do is dream about the weekend

I checked into my bed and breakfast late Friday night, two hours away from home, all by myself. The antique furniture made me feel at home. It smelt funny, a little musky perhaps, but I didn't mind. I poured myself some English Breakfast tea, snuggled into my pyjamas and turned on the TV. Shawshank Redemption was on (my favourite!) and, even though I had to be up early the next morning, I sat through and watched the whole thing.

When it was time for dreams, I turned off the lights and lay in the darkness. It was so dark though that it took me longer than normal for my eyes to readjust. I hate to admit it but darkness still scares me. My imagination never stops and when left to its own devices it starts to conjure up creatures great and small hiding in my room, waiting for me. It's such a nuisance.

But I managed to send myself into a beautiful place and when I awoke it was morning and the light was streaming through my window, illuminating the white sheets that covered my body. I hid under those sheets for a while and cuddled my pillow. I'm not sure if it's just me but doesn't the world look more beautiful under a white sheet? I could have stayed there for hours.

Blogging hasn't been coming to me as naturally as it used to. 

But I think that's okay. 

Because the truth is, I'm fine. I've just been laying under my sheets feeling fine. I'm not sure if I'm here because I'm hiding from monsters, or avoiding the burdens of life or if I'm just wanting to remain comfortable for a little while longer. Whatever the reason though I think it is okay that I am here.

Because I'm comfortable and I'm fine and right now that's all I need.

There are dangers in remaining in your comfort zone though. I believe that creativity is inspired when you're fearful, when you're out of your little bubble, when you're fighting monsters and taking on life one burden at a time.

But sometimes I think it's okay to hide under your sheets a little longer until you're ready to go out and fight.

There's no need to rush. Take it all in. Enjoy your comfort.

I think I'm going to do that for the next little while.

p.s. if you're looking for inspiration to get you out from under your covers, to take on the world, then watch this video. Seriously, it's so good.

13 comments:

  1. beautiful words! I love your narrative ;)

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  2. I absolutely love the way you wrote this! I actually came across a shot of this bed and breakfast on your Instagram and I fell in love with the place before I even knew what it was haha. I'm so glad you wrote this post! :) xo

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  3. I love that you went away on your own. I've always fantasised about doing that. No tech... just a sketchbook, a camera and a good book. Maybe one day :)

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  4. Your blog is so refreshing and thoughtful, Sam. I come here whenever I want to read about someone truly savoring the little moments.

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  5. Enjoying your own time, and relishing in it is not done often enough. Kudos to you Sam, for this. You treat yourself well!

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  6. Wonderful talk. It's a reminder I always need. Thanks for sharing.

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  7. I wish I understood why some things come naturally for a while and then suddenly...don't. But I love you work regardless. And how amazing is Brene Brown? Thanks for sharing that video, I hadn't seen that one yet. Have you read her Gifts of Imperfection book? I just read it recently and it's fantastic.

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  8. You're allowed to hide away, even if you don't know why :) There is nothing wrong with adorable pyjamas and being comfortable :)

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  9. oooohhh, Ive always wanted to escape to a B&B by myself! My imagination totally conjures up weird monsters/people if it is dark, gets super annoying sometimes, but having a vivid imagination can be fun (not boring!)

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  10. Beautiful and intriguing photography, as well as writing! Brené Brown is amazing; I'm currently reading one of her books. If you haven't seen her talks on vulnerability, I strongly recommend it :)

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  11. There's nothing better than wrapping yourself up in a cocoon of fresh sheets. The world just seems so much more happier, calmer and tranquil.

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  12. Your words are always amazing, and honesty in a post is the best thing. I think something that really helps me is to be okay with not being okay.

    Also, these photos. They're beautiful.

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