Honesty and social media: A tricky partnership.
They say social media is just a highlight reel. It's a written and visual display of all the good in someones life. It's filled with filters to make us look better, colour enhancers to make even the most boring meal look appetising, and jealousy meters that are usually peaking.
When I look at my Instagram I have to agree that my social media is quite a nice looking snippet of my life. It shows me looking pretty in new hair cuts and new outfits, it makes me out to be someone who is always out for brunch or wandering around the great outdoors. It makes me look 'cool' which I assure you I am not.
Truth is, as beautiful and somewhat real these images are, they aren't entirely painting the whole picture.
Truth is for every selfie on my Instagram comes the multitude of outtakes that take up all the space on my camera roll
For every food shot comes the awkwardness of standing up in the middle of a crowded cafe to get my birds eye view shot
For every shot of Stephen comes the "ooo Stephen, look at that light. Go stand over there and look in that direction...no the other direction! yes that's it" *
For every pretty scene I capture comes the VSCO filter that makes it looks so much nicer than it actually is
My photos aren't lies but they're not exactly shot-for-shot proof of my life either
In fact there are the countless photos I don't upload, the moments you don't see at all such as the snotty nose, or the messy room, or the hours of time spent at work each week. And then there's the one's I don't even bother trying to capture with my iphone; the sadness, the pain, the anger, the boredom and lack of motivation.
I want to share all that with you, I really do. I want to be as honest as I can without making myself too vulnerable. I want to share the struggle of trying to keep up with the world, of the days and weeks that are lacking in inspiration. But as much as I want to do that there are some days I just want to go outside and take a pretty photo and upload it to social media to remind myself that my life can be beautiful.
That it is beautiful.
I hope that's okay with you x
*someone give that man a
medal trophy for putting up with me